been busy like a bumble beeee.. was away from e cyber world for days! (as u can see from the lack of updates luhs)
just did my usual online routine; checking fb updates, read my emails, checking out my few top fav blogshops and nonetheless, my lil small space to let out. :) but things getting a lil dull in here uh.. :( oh wells. afterall im nt some famous blogger nor can i write like J.K. Rowling; to keep ppl coming back to this space. :/
heh, Christmas just past us by. wonder how u spent your Christmas this year.. hopefully its great! :)
sadly mine wasnt that awesome cos i've been grumpy lately. i get angry over the slightest matters. :( i dont know why. i feel so moodless and all.. and i feel that no matter wad i do, i just dont feel satisfied. seriously, i dont even know wad i want.
and u know when u re feeling down, u feel that u look awful, ur confidence level just dropped to point zero. i dont even feel like going down to town on this special season.. cos i feel so ugly. and everyone around me look so gorgeous. BLAHHHHH!
just want to say, im sorry if i “shouted” at you or attitude you. I dont really mean it..but sometimes i feel so pissed off by what u said. u may nt mean it nor serious abt it. but im serious when im talking to u and can u be serious and not say smth so insulting to make me upset and scream at u? :( i know u are trying hard to pacify me.. okay, maybe its my bad for feeling so moodless today. i apologise.
my eyes still hurt. so does my heart too. its as if a love-hate affair going on here. i feel that i cnt excite u anymore.. :( the doubts are invading.. the trust is disappearing.. ------
alright enough of being emo. theres actually a few pleasant things that made me smile frm ear to ear. :)
first of all, still thank u bf for bringing me to Equinox at Swissotel THE STAMFORD for lunch buffet! total luxury to dine in there. :) pictures up soon! not forgetting to pamper me to a manicure!
next was super great meet ups with my favourites! Scandal Zhen for shopping and dinner! :) i cnt get enough of her! shes mega love. and Lan freshie Lijuan to the crappiest catch up. Thank you babe for the pressie! lovelove! i know i took a long time to make a decision. :x
not forgetting clashing coscas’ outings! Zadaz and Novir!!! :D met so many new people and everyones so niceeee! I lioke. pictures up soon too! :) Somehow im happy im a progger. cos i can clash all the coscas’ outings and be with ALL my close friends who are GLs! heehee.
up next is Chang yong’s and Scand Zhen’s birthdayyyys next week and then bf’s on Jan! :D i cnt waittt.. but i need loads of moolahhs! :( LAODA, IF YOU RE READING THIS, START TO PREPARE A SLOT FOR ME! :p
p.s.: im missing alot of people.. so so much..
u could be my happy pill you know.
Monday, December 21, 2009
proggers are mega ❤!
thank you guys for the awesome 4 days!
my last otc is definitely a special one for me. not just because its my last. but because i took up a different role this time round. :) an all new experience!
many, including myself, questioned me, “why did i choose to become a programmer instead of GL when its my last year?” i answered, ”simply because i ve always wanted to try out programmer, and since its my last, why not? my last and only chance to be one anyway.”
however deep inside i know, im afraid. i fear that i would regret my decision.
but im glad after the 4 days, i didnt. im not gonna let myself regret my own decision. never. besides, i know i met great people. i love my subcomms. i ve awesome proggers with me! :D
throughout these 4 days, i learnt alot and enjoy myself loads too. i got to know more abt each and everyone of them as we spent each day tgt. i got the feel of how a programmer is like. and the most impt, exceed my own limit.
i was told that i was too soft. im glad i pulled it thru and im happy with myself. *pat pat*
once again, thank you proggers!
special thanks to: cassandra and christian for making our game the best game station for day 1 possible. GOOD JOB GUYS! <3 crystal and emeth for making scissor, paper, stone oh so funn again! each of us have gt diff strengths and im glad we have gt each other. :) pamela and jasmine for making this camp so enjoyable and not so lonely! my meal, pong pong and sleeping buddies. <3 the awesome babes hui min, joan, siewyin and gaen for entertaining me. :) justin, mark, dillion for being the most irritating but funny people ard! :p
the rest of the proggers, u guys are greattttttt too!
Monday, December 14, 2009
omgomg! its tml!!!
DAY ZERO! HERE WE GO OTC! :D
hopefully everything go on smoothly and no hiccups pls! *fingers crossed*
im done packing my bag. gosh. its freaking huge and i havent squeeze EVERYTHING in yet! boy oh boy. guess i will give sleeping bag a miss? :/ and i could imagine myselflooking oh-so-kidish with my rip curl backpack! ._. HAHAHA..nice.
gentle reminder to myself: JANICE HUAY, YOU NEED TO SPEAKLOUDER!!!
WOOT! programmers, lets do a good job! and my fellow lovelies who are GLs, JIAYOU TOO!
im so eggcited! are u?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
for some reason, i feel so down tonight.. u know, sometimes u feel so lonely and upset for no apparent reason? u just feel everything isnt on the right track?
everythings in a mess and my mind is flooded. i just dont feel happy..
i may not appear very affected in front of my friends.. cos i dont want to make my day so hard to get by. nor bring the bad aura to them..
but when e night comes along and when im alone, my fears and troubles start coming out to haunt me..
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anw, been trying hard t make myself better tonight. saw this few quotes on my fav collegehumor categories that make me smile a lil. its so silly but yet never fail to make me smile. hope this cheer u up a lil too if u are feeling down like me. (:
Dating, its complicated. My girlfriend and I were watching a college basketball game a few weeks ago. The announcer says "there are 2 minutes left in the first half." My girlfriend turns to me and asks "How many halves are there in a college basketball game?" She is no longer my girlfriend. -James, PA
After I popped the question, my fiancé said two things: "Yes!" and "Now, I need to change my Facebook status!" -Dan, Cleveland State
My friend matt was worried that he got his girlfriend pregnant and called me to ask what kind of pregnancy test they should get, when I came over to their apartment I saw her w/ the pregnancy test under her tongue like a thermometer as matt watched... -E.C
Senior year of high school I dated this girl for about a year, and every weekend we got hot and heavy in her basement (you can interpret that one either way). Things in the relationship were starting to fall apart - and I got accepted into a far-away university so the whole thing was doomed anyway. I managed to make things worse: the last night we had sex, I was 'servicing' her and when I pulled up, my face was covered in blood. She screamed and rushed for tampons - I started to convulse violently. We eventually figured out that it was my nose that was bleeding... she dumped me a week later. -Andrew, McGill University
and for ethan: I had to spend over an hour getting my girlfriend to stop being mad at me over something I had done in a dream she had. -Dan (http://www.collegehumor.com/tag:dating-its-complicated/articles)
Parents Just Dont Understand.
My dad asked me to make a CD mix for him to listen to on his way to Vegas. He only wanted the song "Viva Las Vegas" on it, but he wanted it on every track so he could keep listening to it. I tried to explain that it would just replay, but he said that putting only one track on the disc would be a waste. Will Broer
My dad overheard me and my friends talking about how awesome youtube is. He tried searching for "Youtube Season 1" on DVD. Benny L
My mom still doesn't get the idea of an iPod and calls it a "Walkman Touch." Charles Simms
I have had to explain to my mother several times that just because something is loud does not make it "surround sound." Taylor Morris, yvcc
My mom, after years of refusing to learn how to turn on our TV and surround sound, finally asked me to write everything down for her. I included a step that said, "shake the remote at least 100 times in order to charge." I came home from school several months later and she still hadn't realized that step was a joke. Dave Powell, Louisiana College
My mom deletes what people write on her Facebook wall at the end of the day to "make room for more the next day." Lynn Donaldson, University of Texas
My mom called me to tell me she liked my Facebook status. Colleen McAuliffe, Georgia Southern University My grandma was telling me to look at a website. When I asked her what it was, she said, "I don't remember what the first part was, but I know it ended in dot com." Thanks gramma. That really narrows it down. Sam Vlcek
My dad wears briefs under his boxers. Jay W., Minnesota
Once I moved into my new apartment, my mom texted me to ask for the address. I messaged it back with an exclamation mark at the end because I was excited. She answered, "Is the ! part of your zip code?" Jackie S
My mom thinks Michael Jackson PERSONALLY updates his Youtube page with videos. She always posted comments like, "Thank you for putting up this video, Michael!". When he passed away and new videos were still being uploaded, it was the biggest mindf*ck to ever occur in her life. Chris Constantine, ILIS
My mom sent me the following text message: "Whats the name of the song that goes 'Da da daaah da, da da daaah da, da da daaah dadadadaah!'" Mike B
My mom goes to Google, searches "Facebook login," and then types in her email/password (which she has written down so she won't forget) each time she wants to get on Facebook. Ashley K, EKU
sometimes a fake front and smile i all i put up..
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
why do i feel like things are falling apart again just as i was trying hard to piece it back..
sucha mess now. it really hurts to see my loved ones shouting at each other.
it seems so hard to keep a family tgt. esp when everyone of us start to have our own commitments outside. but shouldnt we compromise each other?!
I wouldnt want to side any one.. but i couldnt sit by this time.
i hate it when parents mum like to use the word MONEY to tie us down! its like we would like to earn our own money, live on our own and not be dependable on u if we could. but its so hard to manage.. so meantime, yes, we still need your support. however, that doesnt mean u can use it to push us around, and do as u like. WE HAVE FEELINGS TOO.
i dread it when u like to use “he…, make me so heartpain alr, u dont be like him..u better do this do that” just because he is like that doesnt mean i have to do it your way every time. i know u are pinning all your hopes on me. and i ve always been a good girl, trying to please u all the time, but it means forgoing my own rights.. forgoing what i really want to do! my happiness, my freedom.. i need it.
Its not that im trying to defiant. but i just think i need to fight for my own freedom. im not asking for too much. just reasonable late stay-outs and occasional stay-overs. i find u e most unreasonable when u couldnt even allow me attend my friend’s wake till late! ._.
and for god sake, korkor is already 21. let him decide what he wants to do with his life. he knows what he is doing.
we are old enough to think what is right and wrong. we are old enough to think what we should do and what we shouldnt. we are old enough to decide what we want to do.
we want to live the kind of life we want to. we just need u to guide us along, give us wise advices. and not just NONONONONO to everything! seriously, u need to listen and stop thinking u are right everytime!
trapa gnillaf ylimaf
Monday, December 7, 2009
i wish i have all the time in e world to do that. im really lethargic.
tml gonna be a long day for me. gonna be real busy. in fact, for the whole month. ohgosh.
i ve a long day of lessons to start with. then filming for nightwalk video in the night.
im seriously worried and scared. im worried im nt up to expectation. im worried i dint do a great job. im worried.. i will fail.
ohwells. god bless me.
Friday, December 4, 2009
no one expect this to happen. it occurred so suddenly that we dont know how to react. many questions flooded my mind then.. why are u so silly? :(
even thou im not very close to you, but u left your footprint in my life. i know u as our VIP table runner.
i still remember waiting tgt with u and scand zhen to stand by for the doors to open.. poking ur muscles.. laughing at your super funny and sleek hair, like those 80’s hairstyle. you being a meanie, teasing different guests who comes in.. you saying funny things to make us laugh..
just want to say, thank you. and rest in peace my friend, nich.
LA BAMBINA
JANICE HUAY
♥Im just an average girl next door
♥TP is my lovely second home
♥bluesuki2003@hotmail.com
♥Gemini
♥19
♥sports, dance, music, sleeping
♥white&turquoise
♥family&friends
♥animals
♥im NICE & its so in my name! :D
flash me a smile my friend and i will flash u mine! :)
i wanne be the only hand you need to hold on to.
& you know u're the one who keeps me smiling with those dimples. :)
omgomg!
